It Torture Me, dear...

Ya Allah,suddenly skrg ni rse sgt2 rindukan 'org tu'..ptg smlm kua dgn my fren,n story bout kngn aku dgn 'org tu',sumpah aku rse makin rindu dye..my fren beli cincin,uncle tu siap tnye aku tanak ke bli gak,dlm ht ni mcm nk bli tp aku tetap dgn cincin aku yg 'org tu' penah bg walaupun dh berusia yg agak lame,walau warna asl cincin ni pn dh hilang..sebab aku dh tatau mcm mne lagi nk buat utk hlgkan segala rase rindu,syg,sakit,kcwe n terseksa merindui 'org tu'..setiap hari,setiap saat aku sgt rindu dye,tp aku sgt tak larat nk update setiap mse tu sal perasaan aku ni je kan..skang ni nk luahkan pn sbb bru je bace one of my fren entry,suddenly rse sangat2 rindu with 'org tu'..aku tak penah lg kenal erti bhgia,erti gembira,erti ketenangan since few years after clash ni..its been few years dh dan smpai saat ni setiap detik bersama dlu lgsg tak penah jauh dr fkrn ni,knp msti jadi mcm ni?smpai bile aku kena hidup dalam keadaan mcm ni? i'm too tired to continue my life like this but i never be tired loving you 'someone'..never be tired..i am sorry,i really do..i've tried everything, and i've done enough with all the trial i've done,my life n my love never change like what we expect..dulu mse bersama,mcm2 berjanji but guess what?aku lgsg tak penah yakin aku akn pegang janji aku yg aku takkan lupekan dye dan aku akn tetap sayang dye smpai akhir hayat sbb rse mcm mengarut je,let say if anything happen,msti cr pengganti n bhgia then dh tak syg n lupekan ksh silam..but then i was wrong,i was totally wrong cause till today since we broke up few years ago,janji tu seakan2 tanak pegi dr diri aku..aku tak penah lgsg lupekan dye plus ht aku masih mcm dlu pd dye..knp smpai cmni??knp aku yg kena lalui sume ni?arghhh...it hurts,it's killing me day after day..i'm dying but i will always love you 'someone'...i am sorry for this if 'you' ever read this..i just couldn't keep this feeling all by myself anymore,it torture me sweetheart...